Happy Chinese new year! 恭喜发财!
The lunar new year buzz overwhelmed me for the past 2 weeks.
Busy, scurrying around. Going to the same places every year. Except lesser gambling each year, one word, BORING. Really sorry I could not attend the Falcon gathering on Monday, sorry wj! ARgh! Blame my hectic schedule, or i would say, a boring indeed. Angbaos seems lesser each year. So are the people.
Mocks next week, last night's marketing lecture was a reality check. So much to do, yet so little time.
Mock me mock me mock me.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Saturday, February 10, 2007
OT
OT lecture ended with a 'BANG' yesterday, only 20 ppl attended? cool. Sunny commented that we are heroes for attending.
Sunny: Wah.. surprised to see so many of you turned up on a friday evening.
Inside Sunny's brain: (What a bunch of lifeless dicks) <----haha kidding Mr Sunny is a nice guy ok?
Miss '1:45' wasnt late today... cos i took e same bus as her.
Nothing special, so boring so stumped.
Sunny: whats the mechanism in section B......................? ITs POWER
Fuck! study LPT also cant remember. Jialat Study paradigms to impress my markers? I hope got time. Easy way or hard? Ah choices!
Gender is definitely out.
PET or TCE?
Post-fordism? USA, Japan?
Im ready...
1 down 3 to go.
Sunny: Wah.. surprised to see so many of you turned up on a friday evening.
Inside Sunny's brain: (What a bunch of lifeless dicks) <----haha kidding Mr Sunny is a nice guy ok?
Miss '1:45' wasnt late today... cos i took e same bus as her.
Nothing special, so boring so stumped.
Sunny: whats the mechanism in section B......................? ITs POWER
Fuck! study LPT also cant remember. Jialat Study paradigms to impress my markers? I hope got time. Easy way or hard? Ah choices!
Gender is definitely out.
PET or TCE?
Post-fordism? USA, Japan?
Im ready...
1 down 3 to go.
Monday, February 5, 2007
insomniac
Many nights were spent trying to think of something to say to you. Sleepless, as usual, i fathom on what is actually going on. When everything becomes buried down deep inside, Its not unusual to be forgotten and unexpressed. Whenever i close my eyes, everything suppressed came flying to me, crazy i thought, maybe im destined to be. Some reflect NO while some YES, i just cannot stop thinking. Saying is easy, the execution isn't. So i wait, for an answer.
For those that might be reading this point, its totally nonsense to you, i totally agree.
Penning down every thought is impossible, i may be relentless but i will falter. I ask myself questions i try answer yours. Squandered, yes i am. Amusingly to note, i anticipated this outcome, but i never knew i would come crashing down on me. At such a speed, it caught me unprepared and sent me reeling. Unjust it maybe, made me ponder. Does it matter? I asked, it should be priceless and unquestioned? Being jovial and disheartened, i yo-yo ed between the spectrum. Goals were nonessential, the environment chose what i became. Specifically, you chose. I wonder why. Lost and beaten.
If you are still reading, thank you.
Clenched fist, I cannot let it go. I want to be im unable. Naive, but abstracted? Ha, what a joke. Pathetic, true.
Time give up on me, i wasted it. Leaving hardly any impact. Oblivious, it might be.
Tonight was different. Less thoughts, more answers. Unacceptable answers, the cold hard facts. Thoughts come and go before you can even think about it, leaving you utterly drained emotionally. So much to say yet so little to write. Perhaps im selfish and whiny.
Probably what you would feel if you are still reading, goodness me.
I should be relieved, but still having insomnia. How ironic. How sad. How pathetic. Darn the stereotypical image. Humiliated? I thank you for your lack of judgment. Fool's errand disguised, it started, nothing much to contest about it. It ended. How come? I went down without a fight. Being cowardice and being fine and cool about it, what a fine line.
Who r u? I wanted to cry. Words from a victor, I gladly accept.
Now, where's the vending machine im looking for?
For those that might be reading this point, its totally nonsense to you, i totally agree.
Penning down every thought is impossible, i may be relentless but i will falter. I ask myself questions i try answer yours. Squandered, yes i am. Amusingly to note, i anticipated this outcome, but i never knew i would come crashing down on me. At such a speed, it caught me unprepared and sent me reeling. Unjust it maybe, made me ponder. Does it matter? I asked, it should be priceless and unquestioned? Being jovial and disheartened, i yo-yo ed between the spectrum. Goals were nonessential, the environment chose what i became. Specifically, you chose. I wonder why. Lost and beaten.
If you are still reading, thank you.
Clenched fist, I cannot let it go. I want to be im unable. Naive, but abstracted? Ha, what a joke. Pathetic, true.
Time give up on me, i wasted it. Leaving hardly any impact. Oblivious, it might be.
Tonight was different. Less thoughts, more answers. Unacceptable answers, the cold hard facts. Thoughts come and go before you can even think about it, leaving you utterly drained emotionally. So much to say yet so little to write. Perhaps im selfish and whiny.
Probably what you would feel if you are still reading, goodness me.
I should be relieved, but still having insomnia. How ironic. How sad. How pathetic. Darn the stereotypical image. Humiliated? I thank you for your lack of judgment. Fool's errand disguised, it started, nothing much to contest about it. It ended. How come? I went down without a fight. Being cowardice and being fine and cool about it, what a fine line.
Who r u? I wanted to cry. Words from a victor, I gladly accept.
Now, where's the vending machine im looking for?
Saturday, February 3, 2007
tee-weeeeeeeee
Yes i enjoy watching TV. Lost, heroes, prison break, guessx3 keep me glued to my LCD screen. Seriously i think its making me dumb. What an excuse to answer the incoherence in my thoughts these days. Maybe i AM. Drama, yes my form of escapism, this dull lifeless dude here waiting to discover my POWERS!
Craig Ferguson tickles me when i need a laugh, yeah relax, have a seat, remove your brains.
Puzzled and dearth in thought... i slough my way 'upgrading' my house. Lets get CNY over and done with. The obsession with newness, had me fixing nearly everything that needed to be fixed.
Such help can be greatly unappreciated, STOP screwing your temper around.
Spent 40 bucks on a pair of havaianas... finally got it, but heart damn pain.
Yes is not worth 40 bucks, but i dun care hahaha.
I know and understand the feeling she is going through right now, I wished i could fly over and tell her myself. Oh well. The feeling of having so much thoughts but the immense difficulty to pen them down really terrifies me. I know, i understand.
The idea of self-centred people, and not being reciprocated back what you expect of them sucks. More detachment, lesser expectations and the notion of 'letting it go' definitely helps.
To my 2 dear cousins that are having work problems lately, cognac session on the 10th woohoo!
Drink up and screw this world. (Fact)I suck at consoling people. I pursue a different philosophy, not that i am a cold-hearted freak.
And yes, back to rational-dependency theory, zzz
Craig Ferguson tickles me when i need a laugh, yeah relax, have a seat, remove your brains.
Puzzled and dearth in thought... i slough my way 'upgrading' my house. Lets get CNY over and done with. The obsession with newness, had me fixing nearly everything that needed to be fixed.
Such help can be greatly unappreciated, STOP screwing your temper around.
Spent 40 bucks on a pair of havaianas... finally got it, but heart damn pain.
Yes is not worth 40 bucks, but i dun care hahaha.
I know and understand the feeling she is going through right now, I wished i could fly over and tell her myself. Oh well. The feeling of having so much thoughts but the immense difficulty to pen them down really terrifies me. I know, i understand.
The idea of self-centred people, and not being reciprocated back what you expect of them sucks. More detachment, lesser expectations and the notion of 'letting it go' definitely helps.
To my 2 dear cousins that are having work problems lately, cognac session on the 10th woohoo!
Drink up and screw this world. (Fact)I suck at consoling people. I pursue a different philosophy, not that i am a cold-hearted freak.
And yes, back to rational-dependency theory, zzz
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