.

Bleak, the last glimpse of light frailing under the Kremlin's peak.

Yes the dearth of speech is deafening, as incorrigible as the senseless thoughts and unsound wisdom, a loud thunderclap jolting you apart.

For whom I truly wonder.

MEREDITH GREY!

I dont understand certain people, want do they want?

1) Did u took the initiative? NO
2) DID I? YES
3) THEN? WTF
4) Why bother when someone is so proud of her life and i want to continue with mine.
5) I never gave up, you threw in the towel first.

Think about it. Seriously, stop and think.

Arseholes

Last minute, they told me enough promoters already! After i went for their freaking product training in inhale massive volumes of 2nd hand smoke.
ARSEHOLES!!!


Finally done with watching 40 episodes of the Duke of Mount Deer. Ah, what an ending.
Starting hoarding wives loh... hahaha

To my patient readers, (If there are), I'll update less frequent. Nothing to write about there days. Either post-exams rants, mundane life whine, blah blah...

Time to begin something new, a new chapter maybe. How about the previous chapters? Have they gone to naught? How about a new book? Run, run, keep running and never look back.

End with a nice song

vivo

HS treat us Marche today! Mushrooms, chicken, rosti, pork sausage and BEER!

To HS my girl (pause for 10 secs) friend,

Don't be depressed, while one's encounters might be unseemingly kind and naive. Never underestimate the guise and flair one might exhibit to portray the immaculate self. Never cry foul when one stabs through the cracks of a helping hand. Don't be fooled by their lips, for it serves more than just speak.

End of the day, just continue retail therapy with EC la.

Got moi clothes, only can send more emails and wait.

Please please please, call me for interview okkkkkk?

Sandra ohhhhhhhhhhh

YES MerDer is Back!

Happy for Meredith!... I hope... seriously ya?

I reckon Christina Yang is the only dark and twisty resident left... maybe Izzie... and Alex..


Anyway the owner of this clip allowed it to embedded... thanks!
It screams volumes on how parallel my life could run with the show, snippets here and there, all at the same time... Who knows I might be the next intern... time to practice 'SERIOUSLY'

Sweet Serenade

7 years ago, it was yesterday and today. Time files, but never my adoration for my cute Tomiko.

emo man!

I wrote so fast, i forgot to breathe....

Icp was fun and not boring at all...

Goodbye my icp favs... all the best ya!

I got so many, i lost count lol oops.. Yes you can throw me into rehab

Have you ever wondered why every life changing moment you thought just came and flew by at the wrong time. What is it that can substantiate the moment of depressing notion that weaved around you and refusing to let go. You walk empty corridors and take empty lifts. If that is how this place, this life gives me, I plea for the hiatus of happiness to end. I cannot say you bequeathed me with nothing, no scar that would not heal, oxymoron i fret not. You say you liked that word, I thank you for that. Be it me or in my blood, I only could say, I would be there when all falters.

I digressed, I puked, thank goodness icp's over, ok no, catch-22.

Never say goodbye to your favs..... NEVER!

Ps: Hazel bro please do your job OK!

Porter~!

He says firms require CHANCE!

lets chance it!

lets rock icp guys

arghhhhhhhh

I freaking studied risk! and it came out...

But i never study the complementary examples...

FUCK...

I need to time travel

zomg she did!

My dear sumiko wrote (whine), whatever on Sunday Times today. This time round it was about being a mother in the 40s. Not actually being one but the big 'what-if' she was. Having nieces and nephews over could be the best consolation prize and closest to parenting a single person could get. We all console ourselves don't we. May it be one day or two weeks, we get funneled back into the reality of our lifes.

What struck me was to imagine myself waking up one morning to see sumiko running out of stuff to whine! zomg. She did mention getting 'less broody', due to some biological changes.

This notion was depressing as i ate through my choco HL cornflakes. Its bad enough not to read her columns every sunday already. Not that i enjoy lambasting her life, its a telescopic view into mine. Yes i do want to see her happy,married and have children. Whining is good, its healthy and adds sour lemony flavours to stinky reality.

I already had someone pledging godmothership to my non-existent children last night. Its sometime i never would want in my mid 20s, really.

To my dear friends, please get married and have children.
Veran don't mind parent-prostituting for a day.

Neverending White Lights - Distance

Scream out all the ways you notice
The past is gone, forget what you had
If you're the only one who knows it
Then you can't come back to me, I know
Do whispers of lovers always hold you way
underneath the tides in our minds?

Don't you wish you were here?
Don't you wish I was?
Something more than a mystery to uncover
Don't you wish I was?
Don't you wish we were?
Lovers without distance from each other

You say that you believe in all this
But you can't pretend for the sake of faith
Are we the only ones who mean it?
For all you give you take from me

Don't you wish you were?
Don't you wish I was?
Something more than mystery to uncover
Don't you wish I was?
Don't you wish we were?
Lovers without distance from each other
And I had wished you were
And I had wished we were
Lovers without distance, distance from each other

{If you see them}

Lovers without distance from each other

Do whispers of lovers


Grey's s4e13 is amazing.

Kate Walsh (Addison) came swooshing back into the OR in her killer Manolo blahniks.
' I needed to come back, to see that it was right to leave, you need to fill my position'....

Man marries his rebound girl in a spur of impulse due to a brain tumor, he died.

Grey's is back in da GAME! Guess as Meredith said "its the beginning of something incredible'

seeeeeeee laaaaaaaa

Gosh im suffering from premature early life crisis.

1) You watch too much youtube

2) You watch too much 1 million stars season 3

3) You watch too much martha stewart

4) You don't think you watch too much

5) You are obsessed with singing and more singing

6) You feel like making a fool of yourself by singing

7) You start using your favourite contestant for our display pic

Gosh i love 林芯儀......

See what i mean?



so say nothing to me, except... 'Kiaaaaaaaaaaaa KTV'

Owning song

窗外風鈴一直不安靜　風在搖晃不安的宿命
我聆聽　你回憶經過的聲音
開始旅行寂寞很清醒　我在靠近過去的邊景
有些　戀人只是　路過時的風景
曾經太過年輕　卻絕對真心
我給的愛是種任性　不懂花開只一次的愛情
曾經太過年輕　淚純真透明
你的堅定　我仍然還　相信
直到如今你說愛我的那封信
我一直都收藏著　摺疊用心　讓誓言乾淨
曾經太過年輕　在人海飄零
那些關於我的事情　總有你緊緊跟隨的聲音
曾經太過年輕　淚純真　透明
你的堅定　我仍然還　相信

Congrats Jas!

My dear cousin aka er jie got married last Saturday, 10/10... great food great ambience at mandarian oriental.

I was taking the video during the solemnization process,

'For better and for worst'...

Its ringing in my head

Congrats to Ricky and Jas

Free flow of Shiraz, cute waitresses, vip table, what can i say, mmmmmmmmmmmmm...
not the mention the cute waitress that keeps asking me if i wanted more...... red wine *hics...

More pics once i get them :)

we were all once gay

Dewie gave me her lucky penny for my bday, a decommissioned 1 Frank Belgium coin.

Its like the next best thing nxt to prada la.

Yes lets hope it will uncurse me ya!

Kudos to the EU common market!

Venti Venti Venti for ICP.








sis: u r like so gay

veran: im not.

sis: yes u r.

veran: you know, every baby is born with a female brain. the testicles will pump testosterones to male-dify the brain for guys.

sis: wow how did u know that

veran: i watched martha stewart faithfully

sis: ... that is gay, you muz had pumped not enough testosterones

veran: Im not

veran: ....

veran: hey!

veran: :(

Cheers for having a female brain once....

whiskey dry pl0x

Chivas! really to roll, 2 more days to jas's wedding!

Dying without a liver supersedes dying without dignity.

teh 70's

tis is the 70th post,

69 posts have been deceit, denial, betrayal.

People lie to win

People lie to prove themselves right

People lie because they forgotten wad was truth

People lie to blame, blame to win.

If winning wasn't enough they bring you down, they belittle you.

They all changed.

Like the green uniball refill, they make the pen but no GREEN refill.

I threw again the dried green ink, bought a new black refill.

A green uniball with a black existence, appalling.

No, lets get a brand new green pen anyway.

Lucky people use black/blue uniballs and buy refills.

Liars use uniballs with different ink

I choose to buy a new green pen everytime.

1 mountain cannot have 2 tigers!!!!

Jet li was a strand of monkey hair.

Jackie Chan got shot in pawnshop which missed his heart.

He subsequently got shot while while riding a horse, was on the verge of death but drank the elixir of immortality which was not supposed to be his and survived.

Veran got shot on the left side of his chest, clean entry, clean exit.

He survived to blog, be it the point, no one would understand anyway.

He forgot to mention liu yifei aka gugu aka xiaolongnu aka wangyuyan, whom adopted a pseudo-self to address herself as a third party. Well, she died but went on to work in the golden sparrow.


Enter the forbidden kingdom.


He does not want anything from you anymore.

The recipe

Some people make fantastic food blogs, so we have gastronomic porn..

Some people make fantastic cook blogs, so we can make a mess at home..

Some people make fantastic travel blogs, thats definitely scenic prostitution..

I'll try to make a life blog,

We need:

1 HUGE bowl of your favorite Ice-cream...

1 favorite fruit

1 YOURSELF

Steps:

Drop that fruit into the HUGE bowl of your favorite Ice-cream, give it a good stir....

Next, dive straight into that bowl of ice-cream, woooo thats cold...

Now, you are regretting why you ain't wearing some goggles.. JUST TOO BAD!

Objective:

Find your favorite fruit.

Gosh, sounds like fear-factor indeed...

As you blindly swim around, your right hand brushed across something. You realized it was that fruit you dropped in. Hey! ain't my objective! The fruit. As you frantically try to swipe it, its pushed away, the viscous Ice-cream makes it hard to swim around and totally reduces your vision to near zero. Heck that fruit you say? Why am I doing this. This SUCKS.

Life is about never knowing when you would brush across the fruit again and torture of swimming inside Ice-cream.

I like Vanilla.

Yes, it might sting my eyes. But its just vanilla.

When will my tenure end, come break my bowl.

Seriously, did you really drop the fruit inside? I might had just ate it already.

Yes Indeed

Some say blogging is like writing a diary. Keeping your memories locked in, remembered.

I'll say its a crypt-ed notice board, leaving your msgs discreetly for that something to find.

No matter what, It serves good purpose 10 years down the road, when you are all so career-driven, to sit back and read what you felt 10 years ago. (If I manage to live that long that is) You will see how much you wanted to be and what you had become can be so uncannily different, nothing had changed or nothing was done to change it. Dreams vanish the instant you forsook it, never once it came back.

I saw The One at Starbucks, busy hammering away on her laptop. 2 years indeed. Blogging and Philosophy found their roots from her. This blog started because of her. It was the great inspiration. Epitome of Beauty, Wit and Personality, no one has ever dethrone her all this while.
Is this the trait of all Great Aries'? I wonder.

The twist however was with someone else. Yes, another Aries indeed.

I wanted to use the trip to the museum to sort things out. I tried to be friends, but the thought of going no-where is not what I want. Just be friends, how easy to say so.

Well, it turned out to be not quite I expected. I'm sorry I'll just have to chance it. I can't survive on meagre stipends of ' Who-knows-what'. Its time to take a backsit. Face the slap of cold-hard-reality.

Everything turned into the Great Delusion. Every post that strive to be positive went back to zero. I need a change, seriously. Gimme that vending machine please.

Thanks to Raw for the camera and offering to do some editing. Nice work!

silence

silence...

No one at home...

Mum off to work...

Getting tons of sleep past noon...

Never was, and Never going to Be...

Seriously, when is it going to happen, I wait in silence.

the cny preamble

Its the Lunar New Year!

Sort of late to wish my dear readers a wondrous year ahead. Guess you people might have been wished aplenty, Its no harm to add in your N-th GONG XI FA CAI!

Its my longest CNY ever... watched quite a number of movies and ate kilos of Bwa Kwa and wasted much time playing my DS.

So right now im super lagged in my project....

Hope im nt so screwed afterall....

chiong chiong chiong!

Sunday Times

As Sumiko Tan said in her column today, single people tend to run out of ideas to write. Yes, its so true. Everything starts to get so mundanesque. You won't want to know i ate pizza on Saturday or yada yada yada. Get the point?

Singlehood also spells damnation... like certain topics you say with your buddy raw. We are SO gonna burn... BURN BURN BURN.

It Sunday... and like every Sunday the house is quiet. The fact that my parents went Taiwan doesn't make any difference. They ain't around on weekends anyway. As i slumped on the sofa, I felt so bored. Utter boredom hit me. The desire not to move a single muscle in my body (Which I own much really) was so intense. Its overwhelming. The sheer amazement of how oneself can be such a bumper was.... incredible... till you can believe it... YES YOU ARE SLACK!

Nietzsche hit me, Whoever despises himself nonetheless respects himself as one who despises.

Why how sweet...

I have respect, now i need is motivation.

earn big bucks

earn big bucks... and open a bookshop... nothing beats that... thats life to me.

2 hrs at kino... seems like 10mins... thats quality time...

Ayn Rand was right.

She is so right.



When will you be mine?