Meredith

Been watching Grey's Anatomy for the past weeks. Its not like LOST, Prison Break or Heroes which are thrilling, action-packed, dark and twisted. Its just medical interns trying to live their lives in a SGH. Not our national hospital but Seattle Grace Hospital.

Depicts the true, raw and frail nature of us, Humans. Everyone has a problem, but not everyone is so freaking good at handling them. So? Seriously?


Right now, I feel so 'Meredith'-ed.

Raw said I shouldn't had.

Seriously.. Seriously

It doesn't matter anymore.

Enjoy. I believe to the most heartbreaking scene of season 2.

Don't play play.....

2nd wk only and Im studying... studious hor?

my 3 R's

realize- that you don't wake up now, you never will.


rectify-all my lazy and procrastinating problem


resuscitate-and bring my life back to me


If this was your last day on earth, how would you spend it?

Self-containment

2nd week into fray I got myself into, 6 mods, Its relatively under control. Well, I hope so, because during OT, I don't really understand what is Sunny talking. It was sociology, then economics, then psychology, then about him going church, then about spurs losing to arsenal. Thats OT, thats Sunny and thats all the help I could get. Before that, It was Patricia rambling about how much she likes Ribena. Worst, Its was Abel making lame pun-shots and silly jokes. What a charade.

I saw you 4 times today, yes all of it was coincidental. You seem to make gravity 10 times stronger on me. Blood don't seem to flood to my brain whenever i see you, I can't talk and think coherently, and that sucks. All that humor gets sapped out of me, and thats bad. Its like scoring 34 for an UOL paper. I might say 'yeah, Its Ok, you passed', but its just not enough. I want to do better, but I really don't know how. You ain't telling me anything. That hope that I hold on to, to prevent me from being consumed by the sheer power of feeling powerless, is at the same time draining me. I thought i had dropped it, but no, its still in my hands.

I'm become like one of those miserable people, other people sees it as a disease, something that you brought onto yourself willingly. In the beginning, everyone's so supportive, they want to talk to you and readily wants to listen. Slowly, you get so tired of repeating the same thing over and over again, you stopped acting so miserable to let your friends feel assured that they done their part and its over. In fact, its not, and you cannot let the murk overflow and overspill because you don't want people to nag at you.

Most common phrases heard:

'Why can't you let it go.'
'You got to forget it.'
'I told you so.'
'I thought you were over it already?'

See? Get my point? Its all about containment, and about keeping that old disease.
The hard truth is, no matter how much people whisper into your ears, the only person that can help yourself is, You.

need for speed...

I bought my KAYYYYYAno.......... ASICS GEL-KAYANO 13

Got 30% discount at runners lab.

Run like hell.

Its time to run. Yes, literally. But running away.

Drop the pain and run, and hope, seriously hope it won't catch up.

If it really does, the most common solution to managing pain is, to push through it.

Godspeed.

what the odds..

I love psychology before...

now...... I love it MORE!

What are the chances to know a young, elegant lady that emanates wit and geek. Full of zest and sophistication.

Someone that likes to use movie quotes.

Dont get me wrong... she doesn't sit 2 rows in front or 2 seats beside...




She's the one explaining the powerpoint slides.


She's my ESAP lecturer.

Day 1

Im finally back in SIM! Everything seem so different.

I packed 3 lectures on wednesday, the results was suicidal. I am so drained to my very fingertips. Imagine having Patricia and Sunny ALL over again for Mktg and OT respectively. SFEN in the morning was borrrring.

9 hours of lecture with approximately 2.5 hours of break............... Hara-kiri

Mondays

For the past 2.5 months, Mondays were dreadful.
I would wake up, drag myself to the bathroom, drag myself to the bedroom, drag myself to the living room and drag myself to the mirror before my door.

As I did my last minute touch-ups to my hair, the mirror on the wall would scream ' Go earn your money already you lazy tart!'.

Mondays became a little different today. I would drag myself to the living room, and contemplate.

Its noon already, the weather's bleak, Im hungry and I ran out of coffee.

Everyone's telling me to give up. What do we have to hold on to anyway?

Goodbye IPU

LAST DAY at IPU!

technically its my last day... but everyone is betting that i would come back... >.<

I wanna say thanks to

Huishan my 'girl.......(pause for 10 secs)...............friend'
Annie '學姐'
Eileen 'ex ex ex-part time'
karen, leng and joyce

Wanna say good luck to Amanda the new IPU 'slave'.. whahahaha

Thanks for accommodating to my emo attitude, lateness, tantrums and all the 'in-your-face' treatments...

No fancy farewells.. just donuts and lots of laughter

.. darn really think i will be back eh!